Thursday, March 30, 2006

Satu Erti Bahagia

Di waktu ingin membisu, ada yang berharap suaraku kedengaran. Di waktu ingin bercerita, sunyinya alam terasa. Maka, bahagia itu ialah bagi mereka yang memiliki pendengar di waktu mereka mahu bersuara.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Dilanda

Saat dilanda
aku perlu lebih gagah daripada kuasa yang melanda
tidak mahu hanyut ke muara derita
tidak mahu melayang ke pelamin kayangan

Sekuat mana kuasa yang melanda
aku perlu lebih kuat lagi menahannya
dan kadang-kadang
aku terkapai-kapai mencari
- mungkin aku cemerkap -
punca kuasa untukku
menahan diri daripada rebah dilanda

Friday, March 17, 2006

Personality Assessment

Let me share with you, the readers something that was sent to me last night.

Last evening, I received an sms from an unrecognised phone number. The sms exchange occurred through to the night. My (perhaps not-so-persistent) attempts at finding out who the sender is failed. After a call that went unanswered, I got another sms, asking why I have called. (Hmmm... instead of returning the call, this person chose to play the sms game.) Not in the mood to play the game, I mentioned that my attempt to call him (probably) is not a big deal (to him/her). And I said good night. To this, I got a reply:

"Nice word, nice attitd [sic], bad ego."

Wow! What a way to end my day. Thank you dude. You open a door for me. I knocked, and got no invitation to enter. And when I want to leave, you gave me a personality assessment (a.k.a. called me names) from behind the door. I'm not into playing hide and seek with you, dude. Maybe when I'm in a better mood - perhaps when someone had stroked my bad ego - then we can play. But, only after we get clearance from Phua Chu Kang.

But anyway, I sincerely thank you dude. Your personality assessment made me think about myself, and it also gave me the idea and energy to write this post.

Friday, March 10, 2006

Liberation

Wahai sang helang,
tidak aku mengikat kakimu
menjadikan kau tawananku

Kau lebih bergaya
melebarkan sayap di udara
di situ kau lebih lapang bernafas

Kiranya kau singgah
di teratakku
tahulah aku
dalam kebebasan
kau memilih mengunjungiku

Kunjunganmu itu
hadiah
dan bukannya
penebus diri

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Merisik Mekar

Hai.... siapalah empunya mekar. Sudah lama berkembang, baru kini sedia disunting. Mata memandang dari jauh, hati bertanya dalam kelam; ingin mendapat jawapan.

Mekarmu memang indah. Seindah cindai dalam taman syahdu. Malah lebih dari seindah biasa. Cintamu juga pastinya bukan cinta biasa. Kini tertulis dalam diari hatimu ada lelaki yang menjadi purnama merindu. Bisikan asmara pasti bergema hingga menerbitkan gelora kasih. Lakaran kehidupanmu telah makin jelas; percayalah dialah di hati. Kiranya dulu kau di jerat percintaan, kau telah temui jawapan di persimpangan. Aku dalam sendiri memandang mahligai permata milikmu teristimewa. Aku beradu di khayalan menanti canangan jalinan cinta yang mencipta seribu kemanisan untukmu.

Moga kau ketemu kedamaian untuk selamanya. Moga dia menjadi kurnia dalam samaran buatmu. Moga melalui dia kau menikmati suci salju kasihNya. Moga mekarmu membuahkan bahagia.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

SPSS


Statistical Package for Social Sciences. That’s what SPSS stands for. But look at what some students of mine had wrote instead in a recent exam. They totally butchered the actual name with their misapplied creativity.

Come have a look at some samples that had me in stitches in one moment, and clenching my teeth in the next: from one that is syntactically challenged ….

Statistical Program Statistical Student

… to ones with haphazard guesses of the P …

Scientific Processor for Social Sciences
Special Programme for Statistical Sciences
Statistical Purpose for Social Science
Statistic Perimeter Social Science

… to ones with heart-attack-inducing play on the S’s …

Smart Psychological Statistics System
Systematic Principle for Statistics Solution
Simple Psychological Statistical Solution
Statistic for Psychology Students Sillabus

…and one with an unexplained addition of a B.

Statistical Program for Behavioural Science Students

To this wonderful list, I offer my expansion of the SPSS acronym to sum up my impression of the students who had contributed to the list:

Students Psychology Syok Sendiri

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

I am whole again!

Alhamdulillah. I feel I am whole again. My thoughts, which at one time were sent scattered and desperately finding their way around, were reunited as a coherent whole.

What joy! What satisfaction! It's a triumph.

No longer I doubt my ability to think straight. No more dark clouds lingering over my conscience. My head feel almost literally lighter.

So I've learn that trusting people can have that effect on me. I will try not to put my sanity on stake to trust people. If people weave a web of deception, don't get trapped. Reject the lies completely. Accept people as they are fit for acceptance.

Alas, my heart, will you not learn from this?

Friday, March 03, 2006

Marwan the One




Banyak gambor le pulak bulan nih. Gambor2 ni dah lama amik, tapi baru2 ni le dapat upload.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

From his eyes













Marwan took these pictures using the handphone. I really like the picture of the shoes. In a way, he managed to capture our closeness.